I've always been lucky to have a family that loves me and cares about me. They've always been so supportive, pushing me to be my best and picking me up when the pushing leads me to stumble. Without realizing it, I've come to rely on my family hugely. I know, relying on your family is one of the most natural and no brainer things in the world, but before I came abroad, I think I took a lot of my family's love and support for granted. I almost expected it of them, and it never really resignated in my mind or my heart.
This Christmas, I've had the blessing of both my mother and my father visiting me for the holidays. My mom left yesterday morning, and her leaving really made me look at what's important to me in my life, and who I rely on.
I believe that our hearts are split up into pieces. Not literally - but different sections of our hearts have different things that they love or care about. For example, your significant other holds a piece, your friends hold a piece - each friend carrying a piece of that giant piece... Everyone's pieces are different. I realized only this morning in a shower revelation how big my family's piece is. My heart feels so lonely after just my mother and step father leaving - a giant chunk feels like it's missing. Because they hold their own pieces, my father's visit can only make up for so much of what my mom and step dad have taken with them. It really is a miserable feeling - a little hole in your heart for the people that you wish you could be with every second of the day.
This being said, I really hope that this holiday season, everyone can allow their pieces to be fulfilled one way or another. Hold your families close, don't take them for granted like I did. Merry Christmas and happy holidays to everyone - I love you so much!
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